1/118 0.21-2.07 <font color=red>n</font> 一九七四年十一月十八日，08-30 20:57:21-08-30 20:57:24<font color=blue>November 18, 1974</font><br>2/118 2.43-5.55 <font color=red>n</font> 一个叫咪咪的女孩给病床上的顾准写了一封信。08-30 20:57:21-08-30 20:57:25<font color=blue>A girl named Mimi wrote a letter to the patient, Mr. Gu.</font><br>3/118 6.15-7.41 <font color=red>jd</font> 咪咪大名叫徐芳，08-30 20:57:23-08-30 20:57:24<font color=blue>Mimi's name is Xu Fang.</font><br>4/118 7.77-15.21 <font color=red>de</font> 她是顾准在经济所的同事张纯英的女儿十几岁跟着母亲在干校给顾准送奶粉送罐头。08-30 20:57:23-08-30 20:59:05<font color=blue>She is Zhang Chunying, a colleague of Gu Zhun at the Economic Institute. She was in her teens and followed her mother to the reform-through-labor camp to deliver milk powder and canned goods to Gu Zhun.</font><br>5/118 15.81-17.01 <font color=red>hp</font> 当时紧张的要死啊，08-30 20:57:24-08-30 20:57:26<font color=blue>I was so nervous.</font><br>6/118 17.19-19.71 <font color=red>n</font> 她说心都快从嗓子眼里蹦出来了，08-30 20:57:25-08-30 20:57:28<font color=blue>She was so angry that she felt like her heart would jump out of her chest.</font><br>7/118 19.89-22.05 <font color=red>jd</font> 感觉像是地下档在做街头工作。08-30 20:57:25-08-30 20:57:27<font color=blue>It feels like a street vendor is doing business.</font><br>8/118 22.59-24.21 <font color=red>n</font> 她是顾准生命最后几年，08-30 20:57:26-08-30 20:57:28<font color=blue>She was the last of her kind,</font><br>9/118 24.39-26.37 <font color=red>bg</font> 唯一叫她顾伯伯的年轻人。08-30 20:57:27-08-30 20:58:09<font color=blue>The only young man who called her "Auntie."</font><br>10/118 26.97-28.35 <font color=red>hp</font> 这时候顾准已经病危了，08-30 20:57:27-08-30 20:57:31<font color=blue>At this time, Gu Zhun was already in critical condition.</font><br>11/118 28.47-32.44 <font color=red>jd</font> 地理陈敏芝给长子长女写信疏通顾准。08-30 20:57:28-08-30 20:57:32<font color=blue>Geographical Chen Minzhi wrote a letter to her children, Chen Minzhi, to help them understand Gu Zhun.</font><br>12/118 32.56-34.06 <font color=red>n</font> 在信上用铅笔加了一句啊，08-30 20:57:29-08-30 20:57:31<font color=blue>I added a sentence in pencil on the letter.</font><br>13/118 34.36-35.74 <font color=red>n</font> 说如果我临死的话，08-30 20:57:30-08-30 20:57:32<font color=blue>Say if I were to die,</font><br>14/118 35.98-37.36 <font color=red>hp</font> 还是希望见到你们，08-30 20:57:32-08-30 20:57:35<font color=blue>I still hope to see you,</font><br>15/118 37.9-38.86 <font color=red>n</font> 一是请你们原谅，08-30 20:57:32-08-30 20:57:34<font color=blue>One is to ask for forgiveness.</font><br>16/118 39.04-40.36 <font color=red>n</font> 二是祝福你们。08-30 20:57:33-08-30 20:57:35<font color=blue>Secondly, I wish you all the best.</font><br>17/118 41.14-42.04 <font color=red>jd</font> 可惜没人来。08-30 20:57:34-08-30 20:57:35<font color=blue>Unfortunately, no one came.</font><br>18/118 42.34-43.6 <font color=red>n</font> 五个子女无一人到场，08-30 20:57:35-08-30 20:57:36<font color=blue>None of the five children attended.</font><br>19/118 43.96-44.74 <font color=red>hp</font> 不是不爱啊，08-30 20:57:35-08-30 20:57:39<font color=blue>It's not that I don't love you,</font><br>20/118 45.04-46.12 <font color=red>jd</font> 或许是不敢爱吧。08-30 20:57:36-08-30 20:57:38<font color=blue>Maybe it's because I don't dare to love.</font><br>21/118 46.48-48.1 <font color=red>n</font> 他的父亲两次被化为右派，08-30 20:57:37-08-30 20:57:40<font color=blue>His father was twice turned into a right-wing person.</font><br>22/118 48.4-49.6 <font color=red>n</font> 妻子呢被迫离婚。08-30 20:57:37-08-30 20:57:39<font color=blue>Wife was forced to divorce.</font><br>23/118 49.84-52.54 <font color=red>de</font> 后来富了来宿税自杀遗书，08-30 21:07:40-08-30 21:08:03<font color=blue>Later, after becoming rich, he wrote a suicide note and committed suicide.</font><br>24/118 52.66-54.94 <font color=red>jd</font> 只有一句帮助反革命分子销会材料，08-30 20:57:39-08-30 20:57:41<font color=blue>Only one sentence to help the counter-revolutionary materials,</font><br>25/118 55.36-56.02 <font color=red>hp</font> 罪该万死，08-30 20:57:40-08-30 20:57:42<font color=blue>Deserving of death,</font><br>26/118 56.8-59.08 <font color=red>n</font> 孩子们呢签了脱离父子关系的声明。08-30 20:57:41-08-30 20:57:44<font color=blue>The children have signed a statement severing their ties with their father.</font><br>27/118 59.5-61.97 <font color=red>n</font> 然后嗯咪咪的这封戏到了，08-30 20:57:41-08-30 20:57:44<font color=blue>Then, um, Mimi sent a message.</font><br>28/118 62.15-63.77 <font color=red>jd</font> 不准手里打开信，08-30 20:57:42-08-30 20:57:44<font color=blue>Don't open the letter in your hand.</font><br>29/118 64.07-64.43 <font color=red>hp</font> 信里说，08-30 20:57:43-08-30 20:57:45<font color=blue>The letter says,</font><br>30/118 64.85-66.05 <font color=red>aaa</font> 你是我的启蒙老师，08-30 20:57:44-08-30 20:57:45<font color=blue>You are my mentor,</font><br>31/118 66.61-68.59 <font color=red>jd</font> 是我一生唯一崇拜过的人。08-30 20:57:45-08-30 20:57:46<font color=blue>He is the only person I have ever worshipped.</font><br>32/118 69.16-70.84 <font color=red>n</font> 他说起了冬月的月光下，08-30 20:57:45-08-30 20:57:48<font color=blue>He talked about the moonlight of winter,</font><br>33/118 71.14-73.42 <font color=red>n</font> 故人教他要像小孩子捡石子一样，08-30 20:57:46-08-30 20:57:49<font color=blue>A friend taught him to pick up stones like a child.</font><br>34/118 73.6-75.1 <font color=red>aaa</font> 为自己收集知识财富。08-30 20:57:47-08-30 20:57:48<font color=blue>Gather knowledge for yourself.</font><br>35/118 75.63-75.93 <font color=red>hp</font> 他说，08-30 20:57:47-08-30 20:57:49<font color=blue>He said,</font><br>36/118 76.05-77.73 <font color=red>jd</font> 他也在为自己寻找新的目标。08-30 20:57:48-08-30 20:57:50<font color=blue>He is also looking for new goals for himself.</font><br>37/118 78.24-79.32 <font color=red>aaa</font> 而在信的末尾，08-30 20:57:49-08-30 20:57:50<font color=blue>At the end of the letter,</font><br>38/118 79.59-79.98 <font color=red>n</font> 他这样写，08-30 20:57:49-08-30 20:57:51<font color=blue>He wrote like this,</font><br>39/118 80.74-82.66 <font color=red>n</font> 听说你的孩子还是不肯来看你，08-30 20:57:50-08-30 20:57:53<font color=blue>I heard that your child still doesn't want to come see you.</font><br>40/118 82.96-85.06 <font color=red>de</font> 我想你也不必过于为此伤心。08-30 20:57:51-08-30 20:58:25<font color=blue>I don't think you should be too sad about this.</font><br>41/118 85.59-86.85 <font color=red>hp</font> 我就是你的亲女儿，08-30 20:57:51-08-30 20:57:54<font color=blue>I am your daughter.</font><br>42/118 87.24-88.32 <font color=red>aaa</font> 尽管不是亲生的，08-30 20:57:52-08-30 20:57:53<font color=blue>Although not born of the flesh,</font><br>43/118 88.68-90.36 <font color=red>jd</font> 难道我还不能代替他们吗？08-30 20:57:53-08-30 20:57:54<font color=blue>Can't I stand in for them?</font><br>44/118 91.15-92.77 <font color=red>n</font> 顾准在病榻上读完这封信呢，08-30 20:57:53-08-30 20:57:56<font color=blue>Gu Zhu was reading this letter while lying in bed.</font><br>45/118 93.01-93.79 <font color=red>n</font> 流下了眼泪。08-30 20:57:54-08-30 20:57:55<font color=blue>Cried.</font><br>46/118 94.5-95.04 <font color=red>aaa</font> 郭准是谁？08-30 20:57:55-08-30 20:57:56<font color=blue>Who is Guo Zheng?</font><br>47/118 95.56-96.28 <font color=red>hp</font> 一九一五年生，08-30 20:57:55-08-30 20:57:58<font color=blue>Born in 1915,</font><br>48/118 96.52-98.98 <font color=red>jd</font> 十二岁进潘旭伦的会计事务所当学徒，08-30 20:57:56-08-30 20:57:59<font color=blue>At the age of twelve, I became an apprentice at Pan Xuelin's accounting firm.</font><br>49/118 99.37-101.41 <font color=red>n</font> 十六岁上上了会计夜校讲台呀。08-30 20:57:57-08-30 20:58:00<font color=blue>At the age of sixteen, she went to teach accounting at night school.</font><br>50/118 101.86-102.28 <font color=red>aaa</font> 熊人一看，08-30 20:57:57-08-30 20:57:58<font color=blue>Seeing the bear,</font><br>51/118 102.4-103.18 <font color=red>n</font> 这是个小孩啊，08-30 20:57:58-08-30 20:58:00<font color=blue>He's just a kid.</font><br>52/118 103.36-104.14 <font color=red>aaa</font> 喜哄哄头出门，08-30 20:57:59-08-30 20:58:00<font color=blue>Happy, happy head goes out.</font><br>53/118 104.61-106.41 <font color=red>hp</font> 可范学伦第二天亲自陪他上台，08-30 20:57:59-08-30 20:58:03<font color=blue>Can Fan Xuelun personally accompanied him to the stage.</font><br>54/118 106.81-109.28 <font color=red>jd</font> 学生们听完都服了十九岁，08-30 20:58:00-08-30 20:58:02<font color=blue>The students were all amazed by the 19-year-old.</font><br>55/118 109.4-112.839 <font color=red>n</font> 写出了中国第一本银行会计学大学通用教材。08-30 20:58:01-08-30 20:58:04<font color=blue>Authored the first Chinese textbook for bank accounting.</font><br>56/118 113.43-116.44 <font color=red>n</font> 二十岁放弃了三百块大洋的月薪啊去干革命。08-30 20:58:01-08-30 20:58:06<font color=blue>Giving up a 300 yuan per month salary at the age of twenty to join the revolution.</font><br>57/118 117.13-118.21 <font color=red>aaa</font> 一九四九年接管上海，08-30 20:58:02-08-30 20:58:04<font color=blue>In 1949, Shanghai was taken over.</font><br>58/118 118.27-119.17 <font color=red>jd</font> 他跟陈毅扬帆，08-30 20:58:03-08-30 20:58:04<font color=blue>He set sail with Chen Yi.</font><br>59/118 119.47-121.09 <font color=red>hp</font> 并列为三大名干部之一啊，08-30 20:58:04-08-30 20:58:08<font color=blue>And he is one of the three top officials, right?</font><br>60/118 121.21-122.41 <font color=red>n</font> 人称布告局长，08-30 20:58:05-08-30 20:58:07<font color=blue>To the Director of the Bureau,</font><br>61/118 122.96-123.92 <font color=red>aaa</font> 一九五二年被撤职，08-30 20:58:06-08-30 20:58:08<font color=blue>In 1952, he was removed from his position.</font><br>62/118 124.04-124.88 <font color=red>jd</font> 五七年画右派，08-30 20:58:06-08-30 20:58:07<font color=blue>Five Seven Years of Painting,</font><br>63/118 125.12-126.26 <font color=red>n</font> 六五年二次外帽。08-30 20:58:07-08-30 20:58:09<font color=blue>1952, second year.</font><br>64/118 127.04-128.12 <font color=red>n</font> 然后呢就开始读书，08-30 20:58:07-08-30 20:58:09<font color=blue>Then I started reading,</font><br>65/118 128.42-128.96 <font color=red>jd</font> 偷偷的读，08-30 20:58:08-08-30 20:58:09<font color=blue>Secretly read,</font><br>66/118 129.14-130.52 <font color=red>aaa</font> 偷偷的想偷偷的写，08-30 20:58:09-08-30 20:58:10<font color=blue>Secretly thinking, secretly writing.</font><br>67/118 131.21-133.41 <font color=red>hp</font> 他写地上不可能建立天国呀。08-30 20:58:09-08-30 20:58:13<font color=blue>He wrote that it is impossible to build heaven on the ground.</font><br>68/118 133.53-134.61 <font color=red>n</font> 天国是彻底的幻想，08-30 20:58:10-08-30 20:58:12<font color=blue>Heaven is a complete fantasy.</font><br>69/118 134.94-136.56 <font color=red>n</font> 他写德先生不过是方法，08-30 20:58:11-08-30 20:58:13<font color=blue>He wrote about Mr. De as a method,</font><br>70/118 137.1-138.48 <font color=red>jd</font> 根本的前提是进步啊，08-30 20:58:11-08-30 20:58:13<font color=blue>The fundamental premise is progress,</font><br>71/118 138.94-141.59 <font color=red>bg</font> 唯有看到权威主义会扼杀进步。08-30 20:58:12-08-30 20:58:48<font color=blue>Only seeing authoritarianism can stifle progress.</font><br>72/118 142.1-144.5 <font color=red>aaa</font> 权威主义是与科学精神水火不相容的，08-30 20:58:13-08-30 20:58:15<font color=blue>Authoritarianism is incompatible with the spirit of science.</font><br>73/118 144.8-147.56 <font color=red>n</font> 而德先生才是必须采用的方法。08-30 20:58:13-08-30 20:58:16<font color=blue>And Mr. De is the only method that must be adopted.</font><br>74/118 148.05-150.33 <font color=red>jd</font> 这些话写于一九七零年代初啊，08-30 20:58:14-08-30 20:58:17<font color=blue>These words were written in the early 1970s.</font><br>75/118 150.57-153.37 <font color=red>hp</font> 他的研究条件是在地狱二，08-30 20:58:15-08-30 20:58:18<font color=blue>His research conditions were in Hell Two.</font><br>76/118 153.7-157.43 <font color=red>aaa</font> 而哈耶克和伊塞格林是坐在书房里写出了几乎相同的结论。08-30 20:58:16-08-30 20:58:19<font color=blue>Hayek and Isenegrim, sitting in the study, came to almost identical conclusions.</font><br>77/118 158.57-160.19 <font color=red>n</font> 这本书的作者朱学琴说呀，08-30 20:58:17-08-30 20:58:20<font color=blue>According to the author, Zhu Xueqin, this book...</font><br>78/118 160.76-161.42 <font color=red>jd</font> 黑暗如盘，08-30 20:58:18-08-30 20:58:19<font color=blue>Dark as a plate,</font><br>79/118 161.66-162.56 <font color=red>hp</font> 一灯如斗啊，08-30 20:58:19-08-30 20:58:22<font color=blue>It's like a lantern,</font><br>80/118 162.74-165.2 <font color=red>jd</font> 在思想的隧道中单兵绝进。08-30 20:58:20-08-30 20:58:22<font color=blue>It is impossible for a single person to make progress in the realm of thought.</font><br>81/118 165.91-168.31 <font color=red>aaa</font> 到了一九七四年十二月三日凌晨啊，08-30 20:58:20-08-30 20:58:23<font color=blue>On the night of December 3, 1974...</font><br>82/118 168.92-171.27 <font color=red>n</font> 大风暴雪不准去世了。08-30 20:58:21-08-30 20:58:23<font color=blue>Don't die from the storm and snow.</font><br>83/118 171.9-173.7 <font color=red>n</font> 他对吴静莲说出了最后一句话，08-30 20:58:22-08-30 20:58:24<font color=blue>He said the last words to Wu Jinglian.</font><br>84/118 173.82-175.58 <font color=red>hp</font> 是待机手势。08-30 20:58:23-08-30 20:58:25<font color=blue>It is a standby gesture.</font><br>85/118 176.34-177.96 <font color=red>jd</font> 他也给孩子们留下了一句话，08-30 20:58:23-08-30 20:58:25<font color=blue>He also left the children with a message.</font><br>86/118 178.199-178.38 <font color=red>aaa</font> 他说，08-30 20:58:24-08-30 20:58:25<font color=blue>He said,</font><br>87/118 178.74-180.0 <font color=red>n</font> 我已经原谅了你们，08-30 20:58:25-08-30 20:58:26<font color=blue>I have forgiven you,</font><br>88/118 180.24-182.18 <font color=red>n</font> 希望你们也能原谅我。08-30 20:58:25-08-30 20:58:27<font color=blue>I hope you can forgive me.</font><br>89/118 182.7-183.18 <font color=red>aaa</font> 十年后，08-30 20:58:26-08-30 20:58:27<font color=blue>Ten years later,</font><br>90/118 183.42-185.58 <font color=red>jd</font> 顾准的大女儿写了一篇迟到的理解，08-30 20:58:27-08-30 20:58:28<font color=blue>My daughter wrote a late apology.</font><br>91/118 186.04-186.82 <font color=red>de</font> 他是这么说的。08-30 20:58:27-08-30 20:58:44<font color=blue>He said so.</font><br>92/118 187.28-187.58 <font color=red>hp</font> 他说，08-30 20:58:28-08-30 20:58:30<font color=blue>He said,</font><br>93/118 187.82-189.62 <font color=red>n</font> 我逐年追逐着父亲的一生。08-30 20:58:29-08-30 20:58:31<font color=blue>I have been following my father's life year by year.</font><br>94/118 190.16-191.0 <font color=red>aaa</font> 一九五七年以后，08-30 20:58:29-08-30 20:58:31<font color=blue>After 1957,</font><br>95/118 191.06-193.74 <font color=red>n</font> 他是一步一步从地狱种汤过来的。08-30 20:58:30-08-30 20:58:32<font color=blue>He came from a place of hell.</font><br>96/118 194.46-195.54 <font color=red>jd</font> 他的深刻的思索，08-30 20:58:31-08-30 20:58:32<font color=blue>His profound reflection,</font><br>97/118 195.78-198.65 <font color=red>hp</font> 常常在数不完的皮短母辱，08-30 20:58:31-08-30 20:58:34<font color=blue>Often in countless insults,</font><br>98/118 198.77-200.21 <font color=red>aaa</font> 甚至挨打中完成的。08-30 20:58:32-08-30 20:58:33<font color=blue>Even completed by being beaten.</font><br>99/118 200.82-202.14 <font color=red>n</font> 在他最需要亲人的时候，08-30 20:58:33-08-30 20:58:34<font color=blue>When he needed his loved ones the most,</font><br>100/118 202.32-203.22 <font color=red>jd</font> 亲人远离了他。08-30 20:58:33-08-30 20:58:35<font color=blue>His relatives were far away from him.</font><br>101/118 203.62-206.98 <font color=red>n</font> 可是恰恰是他的思索包含着更多的真理。08-30 20:58:34-08-30 20:58:36<font color=blue>However, it was precisely his contemplation that contained more truth.</font><br>102/118 207.55-208.57 <font color=red>n</font> 人生只有一个父亲，08-30 21:03:36-08-30 21:03:37<font color=blue>There is only one father in life.</font><br>103/118 208.69-209.41 <font color=red>aaa</font> 对于这样的父亲，08-30 20:58:35-08-30 20:58:36<font color=blue>For such a father,</font><br>104/118 209.86-211.0 <font color=red>hp</font> 我们做了些什么呢？08-30 20:58:36-08-30 20:58:38<font color=blue>What have we done?</font><br>105/118 211.85-212.57 <font color=red>n</font> 又过了十年，08-30 20:58:36-08-30 20:58:37<font color=blue>Another ten years have passed,</font><br>106/118 212.88-214.26 <font color=red>jd</font> 整个社会才蓦然回首，08-30 20:58:37-08-30 20:58:38<font color=blue>The whole society suddenly looked back.</font><br>107/118 214.62-214.8 <font color=red>n</font> 惊讶，08-30 20:58:38-08-30 20:58:39<font color=blue>Surprise,</font><br>108/118 215.43-216.68 <font color=red>aaa</font> 不准这先知啊，08-30 20:58:38-08-30 20:58:40<font color=blue>Don't be so presumptuous,</font><br>109/118 217.2-219.54 <font color=red>n</font> 朱学琴先生把这些都写进了我手里。08-30 20:58:39-08-30 20:58:42<font color=blue>Mr. Zhu Xiqin has written all of these down in my hand.</font><br>110/118 219.6-220.69 <font color=red>hp</font> 这本书风声、08-30 20:58:40-08-30 20:58:42<font color=blue>This book is a breeze.</font><br>111/118 220.99-221.17 <font color=red>jd</font> 雨声、08-30 20:58:40-08-30 20:58:41<font color=blue>Rain,</font><br>112/118 221.35-223.83 <font color=red>n</font> 读书生这本书首版是一九九四年啊，08-30 20:58:41-08-30 20:58:44<font color=blue>The first edition of this book was in 1994.</font><br>113/118 224.4-225.6 <font color=red>aaa</font> 读者无不动容啊，08-30 20:58:42-08-30 20:58:43<font color=blue>The readers are all in awe.</font><br>114/118 226.02-226.5 <font color=red>jd</font> 感人至深。08-30 20:58:42-08-30 20:58:43<font color=blue>Moving.</font><br>115/118 227.28-228.06 <font color=red>n</font> 郭准的遗嘱啊，08-30 20:58:43-08-30 20:58:45<font color=blue>Guo Zhun's will,</font><br>116/118 228.18-229.08 <font color=red>hp</font> 第三条是这么写的，08-30 20:58:44-08-30 20:58:46<font color=blue>Article 3 states that,</font><br>117/118 229.26-231.48 <font color=red>aaa</font> 请六意选择一些纪念物品吧。08-30 20:58:44-08-30 20:58:45<font color=blue>Please choose some commemorative items.</font><br>118/118 231.88-235.33 <font color=red>jd</font> 待我送给张春英同志后来的女儿秘密。08-30 20:58:45-08-30 20:58:47<font color=blue>I will tell it to Zhang Chunying's daughter later, in secret.</font><br>